ahh, forget it, ~.~

so kevan and friends backstab me as usual, they wasted my time for an hour, afterwards rushed to downtown east to meet meng and his friends, saw lots of cosplayer, it was sweeeet, finally, someone with the same interest as me! i heard from qi the Yui's new album is out!! must get it, must get it. ohoh, i went alone all the way to downtown east, geez, what friends i got. today is tiring~~ came back at around 9pm-10pm he.


bai,

reminiscence is just such a weird thing, i just seen some of my old pictures and i made a video out of it, (no i won't send you, lol) if i can go back to the past, i would just correct what i did on the day, i really regretted, she was the only one who made me smile, make me laugh, make me so happy truthfully, she was the only one who acknowledged me, she was the only one. i regret dumping her, i mean i expected a lot from her, i guess we were all taking our time, but i was too much, guess so. shall move on.

i still remembered the time when people backstabbed me (oww) and it was my closest friend, i thought i could trust him, totally not, i thought the length of the time could remain pure, guess not. i am still friends with them today, all of them, just normal friends, i won't be trusting anyone easy anymore, made me realise something, there's nothing such as a true friends. i hope i'll regain my confidence about this term again.

omg, my dad's going to work at 3am! holy shit, guess this project is really reaching it's deadline.


you know what ''e'' did to me? seriously, i really itch to type it out now, it really kinda make me sad, i had to annouce i am being used, being toyed, being an alternative to love, being a replacement. in fact, it all started on 160508, blah, wei de thought i liked "e" just because i said she's quite ok, wei de totally thinks so and kind of sabotaged me, i went along with it anyway not expecting that i might had liked her. so i played along, i messaged nigel that i liked her, they all told wei de, LOL i knew it. the day when i was absent, she asked all of my friends whether leslie like me or not, etc. she messaged me , wait i forgotten oh, fuck that kind of memory. so we talked, she asked me whether i am avaliable on the day for the birthday party with her friends, so the day begin, all was so innocent (not) okay, i think i am straying off the main point. so on 190508 she kind of hinted me to ask for her stead, so i when ahead, yeah. starting was pretty pure, i didn't expect me to fall in love with her, totally, i gave her my all. until the day she blocked me in msn, changed her phone number and didn't gave me hers, found a new boyf, didn't fucking gave me a break up answer, geez!!! i hate this! i am not so buaygan, i will be so willing to let go, if she doesn
t want me. oh this so sad and depressing, i still loved her, after she she broke up with her boyf, she was dumped! LOL~~ i asked her for patch she say she had a new boyf, oh geez, how quick are you ~.~ she asked me to go to the stadium to support her, i said okay, next day i sms-ed her about the details, guess what? she didn't reply, i feel like typing in full caps now. i not so buaygan as her lah, don't want me go just fucking tell and don't waste my fucking time and sms, i really regretted being with her, i gave her all, she gave me a pile of bullshit. i am so glad that the period of time is over and now i only love my lynn =3

oh meh, really cannot make it to cosfest totally, saturday i need to celebrate kevan birthday while sunday no one can make it with me, so geez, need to wait till next year and plan properly, meng's such an ass. oh well, hope you guys enjoy yourself for the cosfest okay? i'll be glad to check out some pictures tommorow, guess i'll have to wait until eoy cosfest alr.

i am soft, i really realised it suddenly, i can't be angry with anyone for a long period of time, my mind is weak, i can't hate people, i really fail at doing that.

went out with her today, she's so irresistable ((:

today cdp lesson was a new course which is pc maintance, so bored. tommorow's sports day, i really wonder whether i should go or not, since i don't have any activites tommorow, but it's so boring and it's seperated to houses, like what should i do, since my bitches ain't blue house, i guess i'll be totally alone, but don't think i will be going, haha. since monday is youth day, if i don't go i can enjoy for 4 days of weekends, i don't think i'll be going for the cosfest on saturday, kevan's birthday is at saturday, oh shi- so too bad guys, i will only go for the sunday cosfest <3, should i bring lynn around? (: oh, i hate using my dad's laptop its so hot and i can't play my games, since my brother can't play dota on his computer as the computer shifted outside temporary, so he's been hogging on my computer x.x

life's so easy this year, no more annoying teachers etc. yeah, so relaxed actually. anyw, today is so boring, pe totally had nothing to do, cpa assignment was easily completed, etc. oh well, i seriously hate combing my hair up leh. when i sweat, all those waxs goes to my face ):

sorry for those random outburst sometimes ~_~ just can't tolerate it anymore & i am updating my blog more frequently wooh, can't wait for cosfest 08 it's on this saturday~! yeah, life's is pretty typical everyday, except it's more quieter today, ha. wonder whether i'll be going to sport day tho. i really hate the reading period at the hall~

oh well oh well probably unrealistic. i am a nerd woots, i comb up my hair (: i wonder how long i could do this without getting caught for long hair i actually survived for 5 days and counting. i am so so insomniac~~! , like totally random. i really can't run in 2.4km without getting gastric pain, appendix pain && chest pain~! wow, i sucks. i really need to take a light breakfast before i run seriously.


300608 (:

bleh, i finally give up le. hope you find your real mr. right bahs.

it might not meant a lot to you, but it meant a lot to me for this time period, the days we were together, how shy we were at first, if it's not for wei de for sabotaging me, i guess we won't even be together, i guess we pretty much rushed everything like how we got together after one day of knowing each other, i thought it could be threaded bits by bits, guess not. how we holded hands, how you tolded you love me, it'll be with me now and the future. actually everything when smoothly until you backstabbed me, it still hurts ya know, i know i am pretty much of a boring guy, i tried my best.