reminiscence is just such a weird thing, i just seen some of my old pictures and i made a video out of it, (no i won't send you, lol) if i can go back to the past, i would just correct what i did on the day, i really regretted, she was the only one who made me smile, make me laugh, make me so happy truthfully, she was the only one who acknowledged me, she was the only one. i regret dumping her, i mean i expected a lot from her, i guess we were all taking our time, but i was too much, guess so. shall move on.

i still remembered the time when people backstabbed me (oww) and it was my closest friend, i thought i could trust him, totally not, i thought the length of the time could remain pure, guess not. i am still friends with them today, all of them, just normal friends, i won't be trusting anyone easy anymore, made me realise something, there's nothing such as a true friends. i hope i'll regain my confidence about this term again.

omg, my dad's going to work at 3am! holy shit, guess this project is really reaching it's deadline.


you know what ''e'' did to me? seriously, i really itch to type it out now, it really kinda make me sad, i had to annouce i am being used, being toyed, being an alternative to love, being a replacement. in fact, it all started on 160508, blah, wei de thought i liked "e" just because i said she's quite ok, wei de totally thinks so and kind of sabotaged me, i went along with it anyway not expecting that i might had liked her. so i played along, i messaged nigel that i liked her, they all told wei de, LOL i knew it. the day when i was absent, she asked all of my friends whether leslie like me or not, etc. she messaged me , wait i forgotten oh, fuck that kind of memory. so we talked, she asked me whether i am avaliable on the day for the birthday party with her friends, so the day begin, all was so innocent (not) okay, i think i am straying off the main point. so on 190508 she kind of hinted me to ask for her stead, so i when ahead, yeah. starting was pretty pure, i didn't expect me to fall in love with her, totally, i gave her my all. until the day she blocked me in msn, changed her phone number and didn't gave me hers, found a new boyf, didn't fucking gave me a break up answer, geez!!! i hate this! i am not so buaygan, i will be so willing to let go, if she doesn
t want me. oh this so sad and depressing, i still loved her, after she she broke up with her boyf, she was dumped! LOL~~ i asked her for patch she say she had a new boyf, oh geez, how quick are you ~.~ she asked me to go to the stadium to support her, i said okay, next day i sms-ed her about the details, guess what? she didn't reply, i feel like typing in full caps now. i not so buaygan as her lah, don't want me go just fucking tell and don't waste my fucking time and sms, i really regretted being with her, i gave her all, she gave me a pile of bullshit. i am so glad that the period of time is over and now i only love my lynn =3